Change of Plans

Well, I'm just going to say it... this sucks! A week ago today I was playing the sport I love more than anything in the world and made the stupid decision not to wear my knee brace. After all it had been a year and a half since I had had my ACL replaced and the few games I had played without it had gone great with no pain. Bad decision. While chasing a guy down for the ball i planted and he bumped into me. I heard a noise and felt the pain and knew it wasn't good. For the past week I've been hoping it was only a meniscus tear, but today I got the call, and I wouldn't be so lucky. Its funny how they always ask if you hear a "pop" and I have now heard two ACLs tear, neither of which sounded like a pop. That gave me hope for awhile, but now reality has set in. Everything is changing.

Surgery is scheduled for Thursday and somehow a week and a half later I am supposed to be moved out of my apartment. I won't be getting on my flight two weeks later either and my last day got pushed up from next Wednesday to this Wednesday. Two days from now. I have been waiting for my last day since the day I knew I was going to New Zealand, but all of the sudden two days feels sooner than I want.

I know there is a plan in store and I really can't wait to see what its going to be. I know its going to be okay, but its still scary and frustrating. I think what scares me most is leaving Houston without getting proper goodbyes with my friends. I absolutely love my friends here and leaving them was already scary enough. I was so excited to be leaving for a trip I had been planning for months, and all that excitement was squashed all in one quick second. I've been through this before, so it helps to comfort me that I know what's in store, but I also know enough to dread what's about to be in store. Last time I was fighting hard to come back to soccer and this time, I plan to fight just as hard for New Zealand. I'm coming whether the universe wants me to or not, it just may have to be a few months after I planned. That's okay though. It will still be there and I'm betting it will be just as beautiful..